By Michael McGuffin
I nearly quit in
Chamonix. It happened at a table by the door of the Vagabond Hotel; Eric and I
were drinking the first of several gritty espressos when I declared, "I
quit. Telemarking is just too hard. I’ve had it." My frustration was
justified. A day earlier we had finished the Haute Route – the classic
out-of-bounds ski tour linking Chamonix to Zermatt – where for five days we
had been subjected to snow conditions that ranged from nearly unskiable crap
to completely unskiable crap. Eric and I were nearly the only two free-heel
skiers on route, and both of us had suffered greatly. Our three companions,
each of whom had used alpine touring gear, struggled but always managed to
give more than they got, while Eric and I, on the other hand, had been
completely defeated.
I began free-heel skiing, more commonly known as telemarking, in a kinder
gentler time, a time when skiers knew their boundaries. If you wanted to ski
the lift areas you buckled into stiff, fixed-heel alpine equipment, and if you
wanted to descend remote backcountry bowls you laced up archaic leather boots,
clamped them onto slightly glorified cross-country skis and readied yourself
for impact. Though I rarely managed to link three consecutive turns on this
flimsy equipment, I fell in love with the graceful telemark, and like a
punch-drunk boxer I continued to answer the bell even though I knew I was
going to get punished. But in the early nineties everything changed: alpine
touring bindings, which had long been available in Europe, began appearing in
U.S. ski shops.
Backcountry skiers now had a choice: either master the difficult and
exhausting telemark, or purchase some alpine touring gear and continue using
traditional downhill techniques. Most of my backcountry companions switched to
alpine touring gear, and I couldn’t really blame them. Telemark skiing is
exceedingly difficult and exceedingly exhausting, and even now, with eleven
years of experience and the best gear available, I still can’t keep up with
my fixed heel friends. So why do it?
To argue which is better, fixed heel or free, is a waste of time – no
different than debating beauty or taste. But if taken from a purely analytical
point of view, however, I would have to concede that free-heel skiing doesn’t
make much sense, as it is, to my knowledge at least, the most exhausting and
least forgiving method of sliding down a hill. But fortunately we can overcome
logic.
For me, free-heel skiing has
transcended reason. I’m addicted to the graceful beauty and explosive energy
of the kneeling telemark, and wouldn’t ski any other way – well I probably
would, but I wouldn’t have as much fun. I skied on traditional alpine gear
for years, and though admittedly I wasn’t that good, I never once felt the
in your gut, face tingling sensation that comes with an even mediocre telemark
turn. Let’s face it, unless you go really fast, jump off stuff, or are
really really good traditional fixed heel alpine skiing is fairly boring. Why
else are the ski area lodges full by ten thirty? The telemark, on the other
hand, is never dull. This is a fundamental distinction between free and fixed
heel skiing: an average telemarker will experience the energy and beauty of
turning on snow, while it takes an expert alpine skier to achieve the same
aesthetic. I have yet to find out what it feels like to be an expert
telemarker, but I’ve glimpsed at it through a crack in the door and it’s
marvelous.
When successfully executed the telemark turn is a thigh wrenching,
breath-stealing roller coaster ride that appears as effortless as a sleeping
breath. Free-heel skiing is as deceptive as ballet. A free-heel skier can’t
cruise - every turn must be fought for and won – and this penchant to do
something beautiful in spit of the pain is a defining characteristic of the
backcountry telemarker.
Skiers who venture into the backcountry with free heels are kin to sailors
who take on the oceans in small boats and high-altitude mountaineers who
forsake supplemental oxygen. Though they live in a world clouded by
convenience, telemarkers recognize the value of adversity, and realize that it
is better to fail nobly than to succeed somewhat easily.
Confucius wrote: "our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in
rising every time you fall." By this theory free-heel skiing is a
glorious sport. Simply achieving a modicum of competence on free-heel skis
took more time than my masters degree, but the rewards have been unparalleled.
Though it may often seem unduly cruel, free-heel skiing is a love affair, and
like all things worthwhile it don’t come easy.
Prior to the Haute Route Eric had only been skiing free for two seasons and
compared to him I had gotten off lightly. He listened to my rants without
interrupting, and when I finally prompted him for support, he drew a deep
breath and said flatly, "I’m not quitting." "I know what you
mean," I replied into my empty cup, "I can’t quit either."